I am still pondering over the conversation that I had with my old high school friend regarding support and civilians and really we went into topics that went even deeper into ourselves and our past. One thing that we touched on was approval. I realized that I am a person that wants approval from those that are close to me and not so much in the sense that I want them to like my car or my house or my clothes. But, I do want them to be proud of me.
I wonder if my husband feels the same way? Does he need to know that anyone supports him? When he travels to a land where he knows that he may not be wanted, he is seen as a threat to those that live there, and he feels he has a job to do... does he need to know that someone is behind him or is he content enough in what he does and how he has been trained that he can sleep just fine knowing he has done well?
I know either way that he understands my support of him and my pride in him but he has never really asked for it it has always been implicit. I wonder is he secure or just brave or really does he just not talk about it. Is it all of the above?
This really isnt a conclusitory blog but just a stream of conciousness and really I guess a thought on the difference between my husband and I. I always needed to hear my mom say she was proud of me and it was so reassuring when she always followed through.
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